On a quick note, the MachinimaCam sales have been more than outstanding. I sold dozens, which gives me more resources to improve it furthermore. The next brew should convince a lot of people that it was definitely worth the investment especially the customers that took the step in buying the camera in the first place.

I’m working hard toward completion of the 1.2 version of MachinimaCam HUD. There wasn’t many real bugfix but still have to fix a few minor annoyance, like the camera locking behaving oddly in some conditions. I also added auto update feature, I will test it and pass on updated cameras to everyone that bought it.
The good news is I’m working to complete half a dozen of new effects, namely PunchCam, SinewaveCam, PanCams (LR, RL, UD, DU), and I started working seriously on Facecam and Frontcam, but both effects being really hard to implement due to LSL camera limitations, I’m still not sure if I will be able to bring them in the new versions.

I’m also working on two very important improvements. The first one to complete is full camera position management integrated with all effects. That means when the camera is locked and the position memorized, using any effect should take advantage of that position as both start and end points for the camera.

The second one remains to be entirely defined, but basically I want the camera to be able to focus on any other avatar in the area. This would greatly improve the camera’s relevance as a universal machinima tool, but I have to be careful crafting the feature to avoid lag, since it requires scanning the area for other avatars.

Of course I will keep my fantastic customers posted.

Most people know I wasn’t feeling quite right lately, for many reasons. I think it’s time I take a stepback and look at my life, and do all I can to regain control of it. Not only I had a bad rupture, but I had to live it again a second and even a third time, thanks to my ex. My health seems to be in depletion too. I’m lacking sleep and neglecting feeding decently, I’m obviously overstressed, in heavy burnout, overanxious and slightly depressed with all the fucking ramble I got in the last 12 months. I should probably be in a casket right now with all I went through, but for some reason I’m still alive. I’m too hard headed to let go.

Some factors makes me think it’s time for me to step back for a while, find new activities, meet new people. It means outside of SL, it means away from my appartment. It’s extremely hard for me to do, since my breakup I can’t trust anyone. Most of my relations with meatspace people have proven to be futile, ephemeral, and superficial. Most of the friends I made in this city belonged to my ex so it’s all to start again, but I really don’t feel like it. I lack the energy to just go outside, and going out alone isn’t the best way to socialize either. In any way, I’m skrewed.

I need some decent rest and badly. From everything. Job brought me high level of stress lately since were moving, and not for the better technically speaking, truth is were moving in a shithole. I fucking hate this place. We had to move there to team up with some other people for a bigger project. Nevertheless, I’m moving from an awesome loft downtown to one of the most shitty neighborhood ever. I’m bummed just thinking about the downgrade.

I’m usually pretty tough. I have lived worse. I guess it’s the cumulation if it all, and the lack of energy to overcome all of it at the same time. I also feel really lonely lately, despite having met someone, both myself and her aren’t ready for anything serious. Don’t think I had much satisfaction with my previous partner on the tender ♥♥♥ and care level either, we were fighting all the time.

So this is it. I’m sick of it to the last straw. Or I take action, or I blow. Someone suggested me anti-depressants. Well I just quit using on-the-side meds, that’s how we deal with people burned out and depressed because of 20 important changes in a short time, we hook them on dope. Also got suggested to get counselling. I don’t need counselling. I need sleep and time away from all that fucking customer service shit. If people knew how much abuse we take for any fucking reason, maby they would understand why we are so acrid and sarcastic. Maby skipping vacations this year wasn’t such a good idea. But it’s for my associate to deal with it, because this in fact reduced my productivity drastically.

Enough rambling anyways. I don’t care if anyone read this or not. This is a message to myself. This is so I can remember that it’s good to take care of everyone and be fun loving, it’s good to give myself at 100% to satisfy other people’s need. In a way, I did it so I could feel good about myself. But now it’s time for me to try and take a little care about myself. Sleep. Eat. Clean my apartment. Take care of my business. Exercise (I bought a bike). Forget my fucking ex ever existed. Draw the line.

So I will cool down on SL. I’m there to have fun. But there’s just one job I will concentrate on, and it’s pursuing MachinimaCam to make it the best tool I can. I need to push aside any other thing. I will remain on SL Bloggers Admin board and Avatrait Council. I will try to concentrate on what I ♥♥♥ doing: scripting and artwork. I won’t take any other engagement apart that.

I need encouragements in that step and I need ♥♥♥ more than ever. I need to feel worthy and appreciated. So don’t stop talking to me when I’m online. Just don’t feel offended if I’m busy working. I will always welcome you with a big hug, because you know damn well I ♥♥♥ you. But if I want to continue being able to ♥♥♥, I have to start with myself. This will be the hardest part…

♥♥♥, Codie

Code Red Lounge / Gallery will be hosting the next SL Blogger party on 21th of October 2007. I’m too lasy to remash all the details, let’s our marvelous host speak for us: Details on VintFalken.Com

Here’s the flyer:

While doing one of my latest works, China Red, I got this idea that it would be fantastic to have a sakura cherry blossom particle emitter to simulate cherry flowers and blossoms floating around by the wind. So one night I was a little bored and I decided to use RL pictures of sakura blossoms and flowers, do a clean alpha channel on selected bits, export it as 13 alpha Targa files, 6 petals and 7 flowers.

Then I scripted a wearable attachment with simple voice control. There’s 3 settings: stop, low, high. Low is 5m range more concentrated particles, high gives you 10m wide of more dispersed blossoms, ideal for larger scenic shots.

The result was, at least to my own taste, very satisfying. See pictures and link to SLX product page below.

BUY IT HERE FROM SLX! 

Woot! I ♥♥♥ spinning it I’m DJing some old school ska punk and alternative tunes from the 80’s or early 90’s tonight starting at 4PM. Yesterday was an awesome night, my personnal thanks to Nephie, buzi chérie, je t’aime gros comme ca!

SLURL: http://slurl.com/secondlife/Tentacle/238/35/23/

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Jeremy & I would like to give a huge thanks to our dear friends, old and new, who made our opening one hell of an event! Codie, Shar, Lisa, Leenah, Nephie. Much ♥♥♥ and Thanks <3

And now WEDNESDAYS EVENTS:

 2:30 - 4 pm MARITIME TRIVIA WITH LEENAH MERLIN! We know our *Bubble* Fans always make trivia Rock! So, join Leenah for some Rockin Trivia!

4pm DJ CODIE! 80’s PUNK TUNES WITH THE HOTTEST DJ! This is one party you don’t want to miss! Join the Hottest DJ Code for a party you won’t forget!

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Tentacle/238/35/23/

Yeah, it’s true. Maby I should be ashamed. Not! Everyone’s favourite yellowish SL tabloid, the AvaStar, made truely yours AvaStar of the Week (or is it of the weak?). It’s on, it’s true, and it’s in issue #42, page 35.

Friday my exposition at Avatrait Art Gallery gets dismounted. So it’s last chance to see at least a dozen exclusive works not shown on Flickr or anywhere else. Don’t forget you can buy those exclusive in the gallery, but you can also buy online those exclusive works printed.