Hey sweeties,

After only 6 months I kinda became the focus of attention of some people I guess (ok should I bullshit you with false modesty?). Day after day I cannot realize, or maby I dont want to see it, how people interact with me. Everyday I meet some people I have never seen telling me how they love my work, or how they love me.

Frankly, I never know what to say, and each time I find that incredible. Yeah I work a lot, but no more than many other valuable people in here.

Then, after a while I realized they loved me for what I give them, show to them, because I’m showing sensitivity but strength and try to share that strength with everyone. I listen to them, give them credit and importance, and try never to act like a bitch when not necessary. I just realized they loved me for what I am, inside of my head.

I just wanted to talk to you, all of you people, those following my stream, those reading my blog even if I don’t post for weeks, those who twitt to me everyday, all those fantastic people I just meet randomly and that shows me respect.

I went through some tough times in the last 6 months. A 7 year old relationship ruptured is not without leaving deep scars. I struggle with many personal problems, my RL job is rough even as self-employed. I almost went mad. I want to tell all of you how you just kept me alive.

Every manifestation of love, every compliment, every kiss, every hug, every fuck, every kind comment on Flickr, or my blog, or Twitter. Every single bit counts to me, like a precious moment looking in the eyes a loved one. Every gesture brought toward me made me survive. Made me stronger. Made me what I am today.

Fortunately, things are clearing up for the better for me. And I owe it all to you marvelous people.

People see me as a strong willed, minded, always joyful person. But I’m not. I have my share of drama. What made it all not only bearable, but a drop in the ocean, is having you all awesome people around me. You make me strong. You motivate me. You make my imagination burst into flames and in return, I give all I have.

I know I may sound like I’m often bragging about what I do. It’s true, I’m very proud of my work, how I achieved it, how I manage to do so much. But really, when I look at myself in the mirror, I know damn well I owe it all to you people. You made me feel important. You brought attention on to me, and gawd knows I may be extraverted in SL, this is not the case in my other life.

I’m not saying I hate the attention, au contraire. It makes me feel great, loved, cared for. What could someone need more? My only hope is that you people understand who you really are yourselves. I wish you all understand that what I am, I owe it all to you. You are the extraordinary lovable caring ingenious creative and clever people. I am only the reflection of what you all give to me so generously.

Sorry for the call of heart but I really needed to tell you all this. I’m blessed by your caring. I thrive on your love.

And I love you.

Sincerely and deeply,

Codie